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be my escape- relient k
I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.
I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You
Sunday, August 03, 2003
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we hardly talk and if we do,
one of us won't be in a good mood somehow.
and we will end up pissing each other off.
-looks down on the floor-
how i wished that someone. anyone. would tell me what to do now. i just can't seem to get my thoughts into motion or process the feelings running through my head. there are so many things that i want to tell you, yet my brains don't seem to function right. whatever i want to say, ends up sounding all weird and funny, not even close to what i had in mind. my patience is one-fifth of what it used to be, and i just can't seem to stay focused. i've been meaning to apologise for my failures to be there when you need me the most, but the words are stuck in my throat and i can't force it out. -hangs my head-
i never meant to dump my shit moods on you, it just happened. i'm sorry that i wasn't able to control my temper, that self-restraint that i've always counted upon is gone. shot to hell. -shakes my head in self-digust- i seem to be apologising all the time now, don't i. sigh. sorry still. will i get one last shot at putting things right? maybe i haven't done enough to warrent it, but i sure hope that i'll get one more chance. i can't undone what i've done. i can't uncrumple a piece of paper and make it perfect again. but...my feelings hasn't changed. it might be falling apart, but i believe in us. we can make it better. at the end of the day, we'll be stronger, won't we?
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it's the first time that i've been questioned about who i really am. first time i've been told, straight in my face, that being who i am isn't what i've always thought it was about. slapped in the face with my worst fears, think it's about time i faced up to reality. to acknowledge the fact that society isn't what it makes itself out to be.
people don't accept you for who you really are, they accept you for who you appear to be.
things have never been clearer to me than they are now. i know what i have to do to be who i want to be, but in its place is an uphill climb to get to where i want to be. a seemingly never-ending series of pot holes and animal traps. what i gain, is precious. every step is harder than it looks. but i am satisfied with my progress, and i will work harder. my reasons has shifted too. why i want to go there. to take that path. i no longer have my head stuck in the clouds.
fantasies belong in fairlytales.
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Say - say it ain’t over
cuz my heart is crying for you
Down - deep down you know that
so can you forgive me the truth
I kept my feelings inside of me
but now I can see
Don’t wanna lose you
I’m here to stay
did I confuse you - girl
believe when I say
I never meant to
hurt you that way
I can’t take a day without you
here by my side
I - I got this feeling
that you’re gonna show me the way
How can I convince you
that love is the reason to stay
I kept my feelings inside of me
but now I can see
Don’t wanna lose you
I’m here to stay
did I confuse you - girl
believe when I say
I never meant to
hurt you that way
I can’t take a day without you
here by my side